I choose to live in the sky, 07/21/14
One thing I need to remember is that I cannot make someone love me. Nothing is worse than trying to love someone that will never love you.
— Things I Never Got To Tell You, Part 20
I have found a new home, 07/14/14
— Things I Never Got To Tell You, Part 19
These dreams are suffocating me.
I am in your car and in your room
and I am alone. It is silent and dark
and I feel your presence yet I cannot
feel you. I fear that you are gone and
I fear that you are near. I stand in the
silence and absorb the loneliness and
when I wake from these delusions I feel
the same heaviness as every other day.
I admit that I still ache for you and I am
still hoping that we can come back to
each other. I am still waiting for you.
I should have fought harder for you.
I never meant to hurt you.
I always meant to give you all of me,
and I am sorry that instead
you were left with pieces.
I miss you so much it makes me sick.
I can physically feel myself aching
— Things I Never Got To Tell You, Part 18
I am still waiting patiently
for you to tell me that it is alright
and it is time that I come home.
But instead of parting your lips
and easing my fears, you allow
the silence to devour me whole
while you continue to tell the story
of how I left you to fight alone.
I write to you every day;
my shelves are covered
in letters that I never sent.
— Things I Never Got To Tell You, Part 17
This place is a dream, 06/28/14
— Things I Never Got To Tell You, Part 16
I just want to hear you say that you’re sorry.